Sims Lessons

I guess this relates a lot to my last post.

I love reading, and I have made this my career/studies. It takes a toll on me, because I used to read in my spare time and it was relaxing. Whereas, I’ve made my hobby something professional and it has taken away some of the joy. I still love bookstores and reading, I haven’t stopped, but it just takes me a little more time to get into a book. It has to be a very different style from what I’m reading for school to be a real relaxation.

But in another sense, I’ve started doing other things as well. I am currently playing a cooperative cooking/time management game when we both have time. It’s really fun to play a cooperative game that we both enjoy, that is challenging and an activity together.

I feel guilty sometimes when I am playing, because I could be reading for fun and ‘expanding’ my mind in that way, but choose to play games that don’t really expand my mind.

I tell myself that it’s for fun. But there’s still a part of me that thinks, what purpose does this serve? That part of me wonders, you should devote more time to reading for fun.

But I guess there’s been a large element of fun that has been changed or eliminated. It doesn’t have the same ring anymore.

And that’s okay. Things in life change, hobbies, interests. And it’s okay, or it should be, to acknowledge that and move, to change.

I can’t say I won’t play the game anymore, because I will.

I guess the real challenge isn’t reading more, sometimes I think it is, the real challenge is quite the opposite.

I have to be alright with not reading more. It’s not about doing something more, it’s about accepting that not everything has to ‘expand’ my mind, or be productive, or move me towards another end.

As every Sims play knows, even a Sim has to have a little fun to ward off insanity.