I’m just past the year anniversary for my graduation and I can’t believe it has been a year. In some ways it feels like it has been no time at all, and in some ways it feels like it has been longer than that.
In a year, I’ve moved continents and am doing my Master’s here. In that way, it feels like not that much. Those are pretty major developments, I think. I never imagined myself being here or doing the things I do everyday, but here I am. In this aspect, I feel like, ‘wow, it’s been a year’. I”m also almost done with getting my TEFL certification as well.
Yet at the same time, sometime I feel so stagnated, like I should be doing more with my time. In those moments, I still feel like, ‘wow it’s been a year’ but in a less positive way. I still feel like there’s so many things I should be doing.
I guess what to take from this anniversary is a recognition of my progress. Whatever I may have wanted to accomplish, I can’t change what I have accomplished and it is something. I may have wanted to do more, but I can always move towards more things. I am living a life that is drastically different than I thought I ever would be.
I should take it in stride and use it as motivation to become better and do more.
So that next year, I can say, ‘wow it’s been two years’. Although, to be honest, it will always be a mix of pride and disappointment. It’s not long lasting disappointment, but there are many moments when we could do more. It’s about personal growth, learning to accept that there may be some moments where we could do more, but that we didn’t, and that’s okay.
So while I know next year I will feel like this again, I guess my only true goal is to have more personal growth, to be okay with failures, purposelessness, and the time I need to find the path.