The thesis is plodding along. At the beginning of June I had a meeting and realized that while I thought I had done a lot of work, it was actually not enough. So I’ve been in crazy work mode for the last two weeks trying to get through over 200 pages of copied material, rereading my last book, as well as writing and gathering more research. It’s been a struggle and on top of all the other things in my life, relationships, exercise, and the summer. I will never get used to working during the summer.
My advisor was telling us we should enjoy this time, the work we elected and feel passionately about. This is our time to write to talk about it and find our own voice. I am very passionate about my topic and there are endless depths of things I want to say. But it’s always beginning that is hard.
I ask myself who am I to write anything? What are my thoughts? While there may not be a right or wrong, I wonder do I feel so strongly behind this I could defend it? What will I defend?
It has been a struggle to get to where I am, on the other side of the two week struggle in which I’ve been reading 50-60 pages of my novel, 2-3 articles (ranging from 20-50 pages each), as well as trying to write everyday (at least 30 mins and 5 mins more each week). Not to mention I’ve also been trying to read for my book blog as well as color and do yoga.