Today’s mantra was I am bold. I don’t think I’m a bold person, I think I’m usually pretty shy and reserved. I am not terribly outgoing, it’s pretty hard for me sometimes to hold up conversations, small talk, etc. I don’t think it’s either on or off, as in either very talkative or none at all. I just don’t know if I have felt so comfortable making friends. But I’ve done a lot of work on this and growth making friends and building my confidence. So today I focused on how ‘bold’ I was. To me that means a lot of things. I am bold enough to (as I did today), wear dainty heels while others wear snow boots. It was a risk, but it paid off. But what that situation meant to me was that I am now bold enough to do what I want even when I feel I should do something else. I didn’t use to want to draw attention to myself, and I don’t necessarily want to in that vein. But I do want to strut to my own tune. To follow what my heart things and do what makes me happy. So sure my feet could have been super cold, which they didn’t feel like it, or I could do it and see what happens. Which I did. But today also felt like I am bold enough to respect my limits and not push myself. Sometimes in yoga I feel like I need to try the hardest pose and keep pushing myself. But it takes a different boldness and confidence to know and respect your limits. To appreciate the change and the process.
Today’s mantra was I am present. She suggested that we can change the mantra to be I choose to be present, which resonated with me more than the original mantra. Being present is very difficult for me because I usually am thinking about other things (things on the back burner). And while these thoughts sort of pop up, they can distract me from being present. So I choose to be present seemed to offer me more freedom to accept the mistakes. So today was about being patient with myself and trying to remain present.