I have a problem with taking things personally. I know I do. But it is hard for me to say, ‘Don’t listen to them’. I do listen to them and it hurts.
Do I care too much what people say about me? Maybe I do.
But going along the lines with my last post, those days are over (or trying to be).
Something I did wrong, that could have offended someone, woudl haunt me for days. A comment someone said would bother me (and I can name some that have).
I care about my image, not necessarily in a physical sense, but in a sense that I take my time to make sure I like how I look when I leave, how I am prepared in class, if I am on time, etc. My overall image.
When people perceive my work as something else, like vanity, it makes me sad. I just like to be prepared and put together. So if I spend time to make sure I am and people critique that or what not, it tends to upset me.
Nevermind what happens if you question something I think I know or feel. Then just forget about it, things will be personal for me. (Although I am working on this a lot and trying to remain calm, and objective, but let’s be real…)
So I am trying, striving, to care less about what people, especially those who are not close to me, think about me or what I do.
It has been both hard and easy. It is almost freeing to think, this is me and I don’t care what other people say. It takes a head strong will to close out the things and the whispers. But it is only when I have a bad day or my inner voice starts to speak, that it becomes hard. Because to not care what people think takes confidence.
But, as one very beautiful singing woman said, ‘I have confidence in confidence alone, besides what you see I have confidence in me’.
So I need to channel my inner Maria, singing through the hills and all.