Closure is something difficult to achieve and when you do, it’s most certainly never what it should have been. It should have felt better, usually.
I wouldn’t really know since I didn’t have any type of closure. I never got to tell anyone off or make someone ‘realize what they did’. So I’m not sure if it would have felt that satisfying, but I don’t think it would.
I’ve grown up a bit, and realized things rarely feel how they should or how they were imagined to be. (Because I’ve never had that experience)
But a while ago I had a dream that gave me a sense of closure.
I dreamed my ex came back and for some reason, I thought I’ll go back to that, how unrealistic, but I kept talking to my current partner (who was my ex at that time) and knowing I still loved him, but for some reason, dried up faith or something, I had to go back and try the old relationship. I did, and it was horrible, I felt so sad and it was bad (he didn’t or hadn’t changed, not surprised) and I finally left. I just got up, no bags and left and went back to Munich and fell asleep next to my partner.
I awoke feeling very confused (as I do with most of my dreams because they are always wacky and totally vivid). But I felt very confident I was where I wanted to be. Dream me had guided me here and I felt like it was a sign.
Because the broken things don’t always fix themselves, and sometimes, when your brain or heart doesn’t know where it wants to or should be, your dream self does.