I am sort of a clumsy person, I injured myself while peeling something and then the next day burnt myself steaming dumplings…and this wasn’t a fluke. It happens quite a lot.
Because of this, I look down while walking a lot, to make sure I am not going to trip over something. This does not have the advantage of being able to avoid running people or umbrellas, so it already has its flaws.
I am torn between looking forward and down in order to not bump into people or fall on the ground, and now I have a new one! I have been looking up a lot to avoid spiders.
I don’t want them to fall on my head.
I’m sure all of these directions seem quite stupid, who really is as clumsy and cares about spiders? Yeah, me.
But the other day when I was running through the parking garage to avoid spiders dropping on my head, I thought of something.
I never used to think about spiders above me, and still none dropped on my head. It has just been some recent worry of mine that has taken over.
But I can’t keep walking around looking for the next source of danger, because I won’t find it. It will most likely find me when I’m not expecting it. And no amount of avoiding parking buildings, or looking up will protect me from it. And that’s just the way of life.
I can’t keep looking out for the next danger because I don’t know what it will be. I’m not saying I won’t walk around thinking about it, because I will. But I’m missing all the things in front of me and around me when I’m worried about these types of things.
So while I wish I could say I wouldn’t care anymore and just keep my eyes ahead of me, I will be better at balancing where I look from now on.