Guilt is one of those emotions that lurks behind your eyes. It may not tell you it’s there, but it will be there, weighing on your subconscious, infecting your footsteps. It eats you up, makes you question yourself, everything really. It’s infectious and destructive.
It haunts you, shadows your every move. I don’t know how to get over guilt, I have a sneaking suspicion it’s about being comfortable and accepting every move. Knowing you did all you could, and made the decision with the information you had. Making peace with the past, knowing you can’t change it.
That’s pretty hard. Acceptance. Perhaps dealing with, because let’s be real it’s not about overcoming it, is about acceptance and forgiveness.
Accepting you did all you can. Accepting you can’t change it. And Forgiving yourself. The two hardest things, in my opinion.
We are fallible, we make mistakes, we choose wrong. We are human. It’s basically our destiny. Yet it’s still so hard to accept our mistakes and our limitations. Even if we manage to do that herculean task, then we have to forgive ourselves. Of course what did we do wrong? Make a mistake? Yet it always feels so grievous, so terrible. It really isn’t, but it feels that way, and you can’t argue with your feelings (no matter how irrational).
So it’s about accepting our fallibility, and forgiving ourselves for that inevitability. We will make mistakes, and we will again. We should forgive ourselves when we can’t see past our own toes, when we come up against our limits, when we can only make the best of a bad situation. When we can’t change the present or the past.