Alone Time

It is really hard to be ‘on’ all the time. I am talking about the feeling you get when you have guests for a long time, or maybe only a day, but it requires your attention and cleaning and what not, and that feeling at the very end where you think, ‘I just want one moment to myself’.

Sometimes extended visits, not to home, but other places, feel like that. Having to be ‘on’ from the moment your feet leave the room to when you have that safe space again. I like to be a host, and I think I can be a decent guest. But I am very sensitive to having time to be ‘off’. I need it because otherwise I feel like I am ready to scream, but even more than that, if I don’t, then I get sick.

Inner turmoil always results in physical sickness for me. Sad inside, sick outside. So Alone time is not only restorative, but also necessary for me. I also am a very introverted person for the majority of the time and require there to be time where I just read or what not and I truly enjoy these things. Fixing small meals, reading, laying on the couch, etc. Alone time can be a good thing.

It is also important to separate having time for oneself, and separate time. Just because someone wants alone time, does not mean they need space from a person, it can mean that though, but it does not necessarily mean that. It just means they need some ‘off’ time or some reflection time.

There isn’t a long purpose to this, or even a reason I wrote this, but it is just an idea I wrote down on my long list of ideas I want to write about and wanted to talk about my thoughts regarding it.