While we’re on the topic of the new year, it’s important we shouldn’t forget the issues that still exist.
I was watching this video and for the women who read my posts, how many times have you heard these in your life? Genuinely. Because I’m not even that old and a lot of these I’ve heard to me, or people around me. I can’t even imagine how many more I will hear in my life. They don’t even surprise me any more because I’m used to a lot of them – especially the ‘don’t be so emotional’ thing (but many more as well).
I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t even really hear them on one level because they’re pretty tired, yet also pretty common. And I wonder, have I internalized them?
And the answer to that, is yes.
I am very conscious of the way I act and the way I want to be perceived. I don’t want people to say those things to me. I’ve written previous posts about thinking about how I say things, etc. And it’s totally true. I have done that. So I have internalized it. It has been ingrained into me.
So my new years resolution, is to try to start changing my mindset. I can’t say I’ll go all 180 and change completely, because these things are internalized and they’re learned. They are things you hear a thousand times and don’t realize that on the thousand and one time you hear it, it actually makes you feel ashamed.
But it’s about interrogating your feelings, looking at them, questioning them, getting to know them, and seeing where they lie.