My Reality (30 Day Challenge)

What is my reality? What are the things that are real to me?

These are the first things that stood out to me when I saw that prompt.

My reality is that I often think I could be happier somewhere else.

And this, makes me unhappy. It makes me sit at home and stay isolated and wonder why I am unhappy and what I can do to change it, make hundreds of list of things I can change, but it’s really a mindset I need to change. It’s not things I need to do, although there are things I could do to be happier, it’s also a basic road block of a mindset. I can implement all the things and events to try to make myself happier, but in the end it still crashes into the huge cement sign that says I am not happy. My reality is there are a lot of things that make me unhappy here (see other numerous posts). And there are things I can change about it and things I cannot.

What I will do to change my reality: try to be happy because I’m here (not because I’m the happiest I’ll ever be, or this is my happiest place, but because I am here, and deserve to be happy) be better about learning German (in a concrete way, speaking more German in my everyday life and continuing Duolingo [more for fun and practice because it isn’t the best platform]) really focus on the things I can change and accept the things I cannot

It’s not really helpful to make gigantic lists of things I want to change, because they’re baby steps, small progress things, with relapses, and feeling good and bad and in between. It’s a long process that begins with every day and every moment and never ends. It’s consistent, and it’s hard. The first steps will be arduous, it involves changing a mindset, and demolition takes time.