This week I received a letter of acceptance to a university for a master’s program. It was both thrilling and terrifying. It meant that what I set out to do, I did. So it was triumph and victory, but also laced with fear. It meant, this is real and you’re moving forwards. It signaled a sense of finality and surety. It meant that now I have to do so much more, get prepared to stay. It meant that you thought it was a challenge before, but you best be prepared for it to get more. More of everything, frustration, happiness, tears.
It was like walking through a threshold. Feeling changed and being presented with new opportunities. Now I have to open my hand and take them, make of them what I will, and embrace change.
I know this is pretty short, but it’s more of an update. I could sum up this post in three words. Exciting and terrifying.