I noticed how my eating behavior changes whether I’m eating with my partner or not.
This happens all the time with my partner. My partner eats more than I do , and faster than I do, and frequently can finish the food of others. My partner has a totally different eating schedule that doesn’t always coincide with mine as well. For these reasons, and many more, my eating habits are changed since I’ve gotten here.
I noticed it when I was in England and eating alone, well in a group, but without my partner. I ate a lot more. I shared food a ton, but when I ordered my food, I seemed to find more space.
And I realized it’s because I stop myself at just shy of full and offer the food I have to my partner. I did this subconsciously without thinking about it. I don’t blame him, it was my decision, but it’s something I noticed.
I eat enough to be full and offer the food. It’s something I’ve tried to get better at. But my partner eats more than I do and faster, so it usually works.
I’m not placing blame at all, I’m merely sharing what I have observed.
And in England, I just kept eating, I did get too full and have to offer some food up, but I passed just shy of full and went on.
But even now, I still feel guilty when I am not done, and there’s food on my plate I could give away and still be full.
So it’s clearly not all gone, but that’s okay with me. Progress is slow and finding my own limits is difficult, but I’m getting better at it.