Fear of Spiders

I have a fear of spiders.

I have a fear of eating them in my sleep, of them crawling in my ears, everything. The bigger they are the worse it is. I don’t actually know why I wanted to do this post, but I had an idea one day, and here we are.

I was thinking about how to control or conquer my fear.

Fear is what keeps us alive to a degree. If we aren’t afraid of jumping, we jump, if we aren’t afraid of the consequences we push the boundaries. Fear keeps us safe? To an extent, I think so. I am afraid of getting burned, so I don’t put my hands near open flames.

But what purpose does this spider fear serve?

Maybe it keeps me away from poisonous spiders, but I don’t even know what those are, just the image of them on my screen is terrifying.

It reminds me of a show I used to watch on tv when I was younger, fear factor. I wonder if that kind of experience would conquer my fear….or scar me forever. It could induce one of those terror states and I don’t know how I’d get out of it. Sometimes when I have intense dreams of spiders, I can’t go back to sleep afterwards, it’s just an intense adrenaline fear experience.

Am I less of a person for being so afraid of such tiny, sometimes, things? I guess it makes me human, but it also is scary.

What do I do now with my fear I guess…do I try to conquer it, manage it, or just leave it?