In my degree plan, the semesters are organized by modules. Each semester you have to take two modules, and you can take them from any of the three branches of the department. But once you start a module, you have to finish it. It’s not as easy as mixing and matching courses, or even taking courses for fun. So that was a shock.
But it put things into perspective for me. If I want to take this English Language Teaching course, which I originally wanted to for fun and to try it out, I need to finish the module. So if I write this exam, I am locked into finishing the module, regardless of interest in the other courses.
It feels like I’m being edged into a corner.
I could teach, I could be a teacher. But I don’t know if I want to. My heart doesn’t want to be one. It doesn’t get me excited.
But it’s the only back up plan I have. Even though the degree/module I would be going after would only occur in a very small situation. Since it’s the only one I have, I feel hard pressed to relinquish it, but it feels…wrong on some level.
But if I let it go, what do I do?