Since I haven’t really found a group on my own friends yet. I have friends here, just not ones that I have found myself. There is a different and I shall explain below.
To me the friends I have here are great. They are so sweet and have been so kind to me. But if I needed them, over my partner, like if something happened, I don’t know where they would stand. Actually that’s a lie, I hope they would be with my partner. I think that’s where their loyalty lies. I am not upset about it, they were friends first, but I’m just saying I miss my friends.
I miss my friends that would be with me no matter what. That I would call almost everyday when I walked down a dark street. That I knew would have my back no matter what, that I’ve been friends with for years, that have seen me through thick and thin and everything in between. That I could be silent on the phone with for minutes and not even care. That I needed to add to my phone plan. That I knew would come pick me up in the middle of the night if I needed. That would support me no matter what, that would tell me the truth, even if they hated my decisions, but would support me when I did my own thing and failed. I miss them.
And I haven’t found anyone here to rival that. I don’t want to insult or be rude to the friends I have here. I know they are incredibly supportive. But the friendships I miss are those that have hardened over years, have weathered the storms, and are strong no matter how long we don’t talk for.
But we are all in different spots in our lives and separate now. I am so happy for them, so proud for them, and love them. I know we will be friends. So all you all, just know I’m thinking of you. No one shall replace you.