So I’ve basically been spending half my days in frenzied productivity mode, or the other half in a somewhat sad state. This is so there is some balance and so I attempt to work through my sadness and fear of the future. It isn’t the most fun way to spend my day, but it gets the job done and it’s been alright for the past couple days.
All of it just leaves me feeling very tired. I find that when I am super sad, I am also very tired. Like: I don’t want to deal with things because I’m tired of coping and stress. So it results in me wanting to sleep all the time or just feeling guilty about being tired.
Meditating progress is not going as well since I use my phone to meditate and it has been having some problems so the app won’t update and it keeps dying.
I am working on fixing that this weekend though, so there’s hopes for that.
And the heat is absolutely bogging me down. I don’t want to move around or do yoga or exercise. So I haven’t sorted out yet what to do with that.