Asking for Help

I have a hard time asking for help from other people. I often let it build up until I am upset or too stressed when I could just ask before. Please do this, please do this. I think it’s partly because when I do ask sometimes I am disappointed or have to do it again, and decided that sometimes it’s just better to do everything myself. But that’s lonely and resentful and sad. So I’ve decided to ask for help more now. Maybe this will help my sanity and anxiety levels…one can only hope right?

Also maybe I thought that asking for help was a sign of weakness, but I think we’re only strengthened by our human connections. Communication is key. Making sure that you surround yourself with people who will help you when you need it or want it, and that you can be honest with!

Work Updates #2

Earlier this week I sent out my thesis for reviews part one. I like sending out my thesis in batches to different people for feedback so I can incorporate it and then send it on. I like to do this at least once per week. So I’ve begun this process. Yay! Also I’ve been doing a lot more on the wedding stuff, every day making new lists, finding inspiration pictures and handling other ideas. So a lot of progress it being made and I feel good about it. I also started a bridal exercise plan (more of a two birds thing) because I wanted to get back into working out and doing yoga and this provides a pretty good reason. It’s sectioned off into weeks, so every day I do rounds of high intensity interval training in cardio and other exercises and then do another optional video and then yoga. So that’s going well too. Also for my 52 book goal this year, one per week, I am 44 done so far, so well ahead of schedule and still reading more. So all in all, really good so far.

Sleepy Time

I work quite hard during the day, when I have work, so that in the evening I can relax and chill. I need that relaxation time for a face mask, or for reading, Youtube videos. Then for sleep I need it to be quiet and dark. Perhaps I was spoiled when I was growing up and I had darkness and quiet. I know some people can get used to sleeping with noise or what not, but I’ve tried and I cannot. It just still gets me. I use earplugs and an eye mask for darkness and quiet. But when I can, I enjoy sleeping without that.

Anyway this isn’t a huge update or even revolutionary, just things I’ve been thinking about and adjusting to fit my needs!

Complicated Dream

Last night I had a dream that I was in some medieval society type of thing and there was a young woman in the dream. Her dad was visiting a rival kingdom/court and was captured so their kingdom/court sent in people to extract her father. Before she left though, she found out her mother was poisoning her father with something beginning with a, but that her father wanted her mother to do so! He was apparently dying of some condition and didn’t want to wait for that, but instead choose his own path. Anyway her younger brother finds out and is on the search party to get him back, but when they arrive they find his dad tied down. This other court was pretty mean and ruthless so the king had bitten off her dad’s finger and was trying to make him eat it. Anyway, to save his dad and honor his wishes, the party kills not only the rival king, but also gives her dad an honorable death and takes out many of the key leaders in that court. But the younger brother is taken prisoner. Then there is another rescue party organized and this time the young woman goes with them. In the rival kings place his unofficial foster son, who is even more evil than he was, takes over. In the course of the rescue they also rescue all the other prisoners, but as the last group is coming, the gate closes and they remain. The young woman won’t leave without them so she stays. Also there was a man who was leading the mission and he gets lost in this cave below the rival court where there are some ghosts and it’s a pretty well known legend that no one has ever escaped from there. There was a rival with him who loved his wife, and as he tells her the bad news, he stays to comfort her and her teenager son. And then I woke up. So I don’t even know how it ends! Does she get rescued? Does she transform the evil foster son? What happens!!