Month: April 2015

First off, Happy Easter Monday!

Here it is a large occasion and the stores are also closed, so were closed Friday, Sunday (as usual) and Monday. It takes lots of planning to get used to here.

I wanted to talk a little about the service I went to on Saturday night, that is when the first Easter celebration is.

They began with a dark church, and a Easter fire outside, which I could see through the windows, just the flickering flames. Outside there were people and they told the Easter story. I didn’t go outside because we were saving seats inside the church, which was so packed, more so than Christmas I feel. And after everyone came inside, then they brought a huge candle with the flame from the Easter fire. This Easter Candle then was used to light smaller candles, which then lit the candle on the rows and then each neighbor lit their neighbor’s candle, so that everyone had the flame of the Easter fire in front of them, if they brought a candle. The whole church is still dark, and so some of the service takes place with only the light from our little candles.

This was such a beautiful sight, seeing the church light up candle by candle. It happened quite quickly, but it still happened in principle one by one.

I’m not one to get mushy about religious functions, but this sight tugged a bit of my heart string.

I forgot my charger at home, so I couldn’t post till now, when I had to work stuff out, so this is post was written today and posted today, which hasn’t happened in a while. Usually I have posts written in advance. So also a special Easter gift too I suppose.

Happy Belated Easter!

I always want more books. My amazon wishlist is so long, I have hundreds of books, maybe, that I haven’t read that I want to and have bought, hundreds more I want to read that I haven’t.

And the other day, after thinking about the cost of makeup thought, in a breakthough, all the money I was using on makeup I could use on books!

I know some people might think it’s cheap to use incentives for yourself.

Like for me, I have already one that says that if I brush my teeth, take all my vitamins, and walk or work out for twenty one days I’ll reward myself with something, no clue what yet.

But I want to as well reward myself with a book once a month, probably on my kindle, when I don’t spend money on makeup.

It may not seem a lot, but I read a lot anyways, so even if I don’t do it one month, it’ll just go through my other collection, so not a huge consequence. But if I don’t, I’ll be able to get a new book! Which is always phenomenal.

It’s not a lot, but it’s something.

My March is totally shot, but I was hoping about April! I used to have a bet where if I didn’t spend anything on clothes or makeup or shoes that I would have 100 euros at the end in either a donation or a trip. There was also a consequence if I didn’t manage.

I don’t know if I’m that ready for that yet, but I can do this little part and see how it goes.

Good luck to me.

New goal for all of April, also my old goal because I’m not up to twenty one yet. It’s the brushing twice a day, I get it most days, but I need to do it consecutively.

I will! I believe in myself.

I am a divided buyer. There are some times where I am pretty impulsive and come back and think, what? And there are other times where I have researched something for hours and made a list…and then gone off occasionally.

It’s been a huge deal for me to pay less attention to makeup, less time researching it for further purchases which I always say no to, or buy impulsively.

A big part of it is just to take myself out of a situation in which I am exposed to it. But another is to change psychologically. I want it to be easier to say no. I am getting a lot better are being less impulsive and trying to get the best product and a good price.

A rule I’ve implemented for now is to only buy things I’ve done research on and know what is inside. That’s stopped me from buying little things impulsively. Because it’s not like I go out and buy a ton impulsively, it’s one or two things. When I have time to stew it over, and put it on a list, I can see if there’s something else already on the list and make a decision about which I want more. I can decide for the new few days how I would implement it in my life, if it would be new, or replace something.

I know some people only buy clothes when they can give away things. I want to do that too with clothes and makeup. Especially coming up to summer when there are things I won’t wear as much, all winter, or can’t imagine wearing for summer and can give away. I’ve started a bag in the hall where I put things for giveaway and need to make it public to everyone that if they see anything they want in there, they should give it a go.

It’s partly out a desire not to clutter my life, to be less grounded in the material, to be able to be more flexible, and to be more.

I am doing better, not done, but doing better everyday.